I don't know how long more we are gonna last. He seems to be ready to let me go... but I am not. Or maybe I am.. I am really not sure. Sometimes when I think about how heartless he is to have asked me to leave, I really wanna leave and live better to show him that I can, even without him. But I still love him very much...
My dream of starting a family with him has broken. Not because he doesn't love me, but he doesn't love me enough to brave through the situation. I know it ain't easy for him either to choose a side. Well, he has given me the answer... It's me now who doesn't want to accept the truth.
Why am I still hanging on? Maybe a part of me still praying and hoping that miracle will happen. I don't know how good I will be without him.. I am scared. Sometimes I really wish I can isolate myself and just disappear.
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